Most of the choices I’ve made in my life involved waiting on the feedback and approval of others. Feedback can be valuable and approval has been necessary for much of my life so far, considering authority figures made up the first two decades. I’m grateful for the positive influences I’ve had in my life. Nonetheless, my ability to provide for myself is more than adequate. I am debt-free, have been consistently employed, own a vehicle, and care for my own health. I realize that the advice I have taken from others has helped me create stability in my 20s. The piece that has been missing for most of my life is the thrill of living at the calls of my heart. Getting a grasp on adulthood has me realizing that I know what I need and what fulfills my heart better than everyone. There is no need for me to wait for anyone to put forth my intents. It’s fair to say I’ve been an independent, financially responsible person for about a decade. Therefore, it is acceptable for me to decide for myself what I want and then make it happen. I will move forward in my years with a solid sense of trust in my choices and ability to navigate whatever the universe puts forth.
The messages I received on November 19th were ones that have appeared several times in my life, but seemed to make quite a significant appearance on my Saturn return. I’m sure a lot of people encounter similar lessons as they mature. My turn brings me a desire to share the messages I received and my reactions hoping it will inspire others to take on all the pleasant and especially unpleasant aspects of life with a willingness to be vulnerable, work with what you have (not dwelling on what you lack) and move forward with your heart and soul in mind.
Although a tiny fear still exists in me about “failing at life,” I’m tired of living with so much apprehension, knowing I will eventually perish. I consider my life on this planet to be a gift meant for unwrapping. One of my favorite pleasures has always been unwrapping gifts to see the surprises inside!
For those seeking a call to action, think about that one thing you want that never stops haunting you. That thing that makes you want to break down and cry because you are not doing it. Now start figuring out how to have it. Circumstances can’t be an excuse. We are creative, inventive beings. Nothing is impossible, alternatives are never-ending. No matter how much time it takes, if your heart cries for it, its worth the effort to create a path to have it.
If you haven’t read about the first half of my day with Saturn at Bell Rock, see my previous post below. You can also view other blog posts I have written at www.innermandalamedicine.com.